Its finally happened. I guessed this day would come someday--i couldn't hold it off forever. I've grown comfortable enough in my surroundings that i have allowed my bitter, cruel, backbiting and generally unpleasant interior to show through. I usually don't notice i've started acting that way until i look around and notice i have no friends. I am no stranger to this passive course of alienation but i really thought i'd grown out of it. I guess it shows that you can take me out of my nasty world but you can't take the nasty out of me. This is not an American thing, nor a woman thing, and it has nothing to do with my company or surroundings. It's just me, and I'm not nice.
i've just lowered the veil from where it was concealing my insensitive personality. like when your friend says "i think i need to break up with my boyfriend while i'm abroad, but it hurts me a lot to do it" and you reply with "well when you call make sure you've got a cold--its easier to fake tears that way." One may view it as pitiful, but I really don't care about...well, much of anything. Once people notice that i'm apathetic toward their emotions and needs they tend to gravitate away from me.
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